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Thank You
The waves of life remind me to persevere and tread through the rough waters so I can appreciate the calmer seas. A time where hope and salvation will take root and feed on this foundation to supply the nutrients needed to form a new branch growing from an otherwise dead tree, a place where life looks dead and new life is being transformed through the ashes of an old life flaking off of the heat when the winds of change bellow through the sands of time.
The simple things seem so amazing; eating right, getting as much exercise as I can, and engaging life as it is right now is humbling to say the very least. I am grateful for so much. Getting back in touch with society and learning who people are, learning where they are in this very moment helps me realize what they all represent in my life. Some represent doubt, greed, fear, judgment and reckless abandonment. And others represent joy, love, compassion and understanding.
Along the way I am convinced we teach each other things as we ride along in our own kind of lifeboats, sometimes drifting along hoping to connect to someone or something which makes life a little easier on this journey, when all along we are connected by the deeds in our lives, how we treat each other and how we treat ourselves when all hope seems lost.
I did not wake up from my coma thinking about the things I had or what others perceived me as being, I woke up wondering ‘who am I’, and what eventually got me to this point in my life where I had to start completely over, completely over in order to understand what I had been trying so desperately to shove out of my life since I was a little kid, searching for these very important answers to my authentic-self even back then but running away from my truth for reasons that are now so obvious.
Since then, in every waking moment now, I began to notice people for what they did versus who they claimed to be. In most cases it helped me realize I needed to trust but verify as I rely on my new life to take shape while learning who you all really are by having the chance to look at the reflection of myself staring back at me through the company I am keeping and by the morals and values each of us represent.
These are simple judgments of what some people think I should be in order to have any kind value or worth in my life.
The question of who I am is riddled with so many peaks and valleys of who I was versus what I will become as I face the biggest challenge(s) I have ever known. But, something in my truth has given me the chance to do this all over again.
These lessons are shaping me into the person I am becoming and what some people think of me does not matter, because my hope is to honor this second chance with a joy I have never known before, too. To have a Joie de Vivre and not worry about the things that will have no meaning in the end anyway, even when these thoughts become destructive with words or deeds.
So I want to say thank you for love, and for the hate. Thank you for misunderstanding, and thank you for changing the rules, at times, mid-steam, which force me to realize so much more than I actually bargained for.
This may be my journey but your free will is your own. We are free to choose but we are never free from the consequences of our choice, in this life or in the afterlife.
Waking up from absolute death with no memory or motor function is much like being born all over again, except, every memory humbles me into believing some of these actions have not always been so honorable or with good intentions. I must forgive them and remember that I am having an incredibly unique experience as well.
There is nothing wrong with me. I know that.
It will never be enough, though, no matter how much I try to explain my near-death experience or these abilities if their minds are already made up. Everybody’s world is filled with their own neurotic and narcissistic idiosyncrasies to value our experiences, and this usually comes from a bias or it is based on existing core values and beliefs.
It really has nothing to do with me at all. However, it is my belief that everybody’s so called “normal” is different, which simply means my life is just as valuable as anybody else’s no matter how great the illusion of separation is in this physical world.
As I began to remember more, some of my experiences play out over again and again in my mind, some memories I can actually feel all over again, cascading through my body when I have them. Some are good and some are bad, some I yearn to have again, and some I am grateful are not in this moment because it all seems so real when I have to fight my way back into the present reality of today.
Today, I choose to walk with deliberate intention and a knowing that I am worthy because, I AM “normal” after all. And all is well in my world.
This is my new life and with this new family, other near-death experiencer’s like me, I will ride the waves of this journey in spite of all of these “simple misunderstanding’s”.
I owe that to myself by the innate lessons I have already learned which gives me the strength to find and anchor my own lifeboat so I can offer that safe harbor in return. Not just as a thank you for saving my life but for being a part it.
I am thankful for the kindness and the safety of your friendship since it gives me a chance to contemplate my life while I muscle my way back to the safety of dry land, where I know even though I am flawed, I will never walk alone.
Eye See
They are often viewed as an occurrence that is unique, and yet, they still exist in every way you can possibly imagine. From the stars in the heavens to all of the biological processes down here on Earth, it is their originality that makes them noticeable in the areas they universally inhabit.
Regardless of this fact, they exist in these so called “normal” venues even though they may seem out of place because they are so different than most.
Often, the universal forces of nature are telling them they should not exist this way, but, if they exist outside of who and what they are truly meant to be, in this case beautifully different, they will disappear into the same quantum vortex from which they have been duly manifested into creation.
Some can be destructive, like a hedonistic black hole indiscriminately devouring everything in its path, and others can be undisruptive, like a remnant of upholstery folded and stitched to the bottom of a frame by its designer, in order to make the entire sum of its parts detailed to absolute perfection.
The power to create or destroy is not Science Fiction by any stretch of imagination. All of the good, bad, ugly, indifferent, angry, and self-righteous people along the way have been here to teach me a thing or two about who I am, and trust me, it has not been easy realizing your own kind will do or say just about anything to change you because they also fear what they do not understand.
Does this sound familiar to anybody else?
Someone once asked, “How did I discover these abilities?” And, that is a very good question indeed. In retrospect, it seems to have all happened by accident. But I know everything happens for a reason. Much like the mistakes I have been making in the progression of understanding myself, and how I have come to realize there is perfection in all things that often seem broken, flawed, or odd at first sight.
The best news about all of this is when you touch the other side, and get to cheat death like I did, everything that is really important suddenly becomes very real, and there is an opportunity to do something bigger by fully acknowledging and accepting these abilities.
My special friends have been encouraging me to come out with it, again now, and own up to my destiny once and for all.
Since we really are a rainbow of people, the best thing I have learned is that being different is not such a bad thing after all. I still cry when I must, laugh at my mistakes when they happen, and hope for a better day whenever a tough day seemingly gets the best of me, (don’t we all) because there have been many, many days that I have questioned my place in this world since I woke up from being in a coma with absolutely no memory or motor function, whatsoever.
Hum?! Come to think of it, this must be what it feels like to come out.
As you have probably said to those who have judged you for being who you are, this is only part of what makes me who I am. When I put everything together it makes a lot sense for me to claim this as my own. Especially when these universal forces of good, bad, ugly, indifferent, angry, and self-righteous judgments pull on me, sometimes even push me into a direction that goes hand in hand with feeling the need to come out of the broom closet, again.
I had a near-death experience and have been given these special gifts by God/Source/Universe/Big Daddy. (whatever you choose to call it) And there are a lot of other people like me in this world, too. By some estimates there are one billion of us coming from every region on the Planet, every race, every color, gender, religious belief, sexual orientation, etc.
The most important thing about this experience has helped me realize that everything is connected in one way or another, much like a combination to a lock, this holds the key to my future.
Here is some more truth; all of this bullying nonsense is not going to stop me. You can tell by my photo I wholeheartedly accept these diverse parts of who I am, as facts. There have been way too many validated experiences to label it as something else. (I have references) Recently, I have discovered the sure fire way to take your power back is to fully own every part of who you are with honor and pride. And as you can see, it just keeps getting better.
Here are some more interesting facts for those who question whether or not these gifts come from God.
Romans 12:6 – We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying then prophesy in accordance to your faith.
Yes, that is real scripture.
The word faith means to believe in something that is not based on proof, have confidence or trust in a person or thing, believing in the unseen. A knowing.
Prophesy means to teach religious studies, making inspired declarations of what is to come, teaching religious subjects. To preach.
In The Spot Light
In a flash there was light circling the room from another source, it is the origination point from the largest object in the room. Time after time it goes round and round in an orbit, at times shaking the center of its core to form many different angles to observe in the wake of its own energy as it compresses and stretches the delicate fabric of space and time.
Similar to people in their energy field, which we all know is the human body each of us occupy while we are in sentient form, life itself is filled with experiences and memories that shape the core of a being, making each of US unique to our own existence, shaping each of US along the way under the pressure of trial and error.
Without this occurring it would be like having the answers to the test, cheating the soul purpose of life, itself.
With such a social dynamic in society, these “differences” in our lives is what actually makes US the same, although there is a beginning and an end to everything, an Alpha and Omega, no matter the stage of being you currently occupy.
It really does not matter who you are or where you are from, it simply does not matter whether you are black or white, brown or yellow, red, white, blue or green (that would be a new soul) here on planet Earth.
It simply does not matter if you are straight or gay, bisexual or transgender, we are ALL made of the same thing, energy, going through the motions to discover our own humanity through science or religion in a belief system that will ultimately determine an outcome when somebody puts it under the microscope for further examination.
The most important thing to remember when you are throwing rocks at a glass house is that something is bound to break, when you are in the midst of discovering your most authentic self; whether you are good or bad. As with any angle in life, maintaining ‘A Fixed Point’ is the key to a successful outcome when different worlds collide, as God and human’s are also the same within each of US because WE are ALL made of the same thing, which origins are in the heavens.
And some stars are destined to shine brighter than others, even in the distance.
Order In The Court
The Knights of the Foramen Hall have been seeing this coming for a while now; it’s really no surprise with all of the information being presented in such a rushed fashioned, that some kind of answer is needed to balance all of the changes going on in the kingdom at the present time. Even so, all of the solutions continue to evolve as the offerings are tithed to the Kingdom for freedom from all of the restrictions it has been experiencing for so many years, even before the Great War.
With all of this gaining and losing ground, this battle has always seemed like it is never ending. Without a doubt, I am also confused about my fate. But, I must accept my path, because, I fight for peace and understanding in the Great Foramen Hall.
You see, the Kingdom has seen its share of hypocrisy and in order to yield to the Higher Power of the Foramen Throne’s command, I humbly accept the chance to live again, and answer this call of duty that humbles me like no other time before.
As I sharpen the edge of my sword to prepare for another round before I deploy, I admit it is all still so new, so different, and sometimes even confusing. One thing is certain; I know the enemy is out there, ready to bear arms, or fight hand to hand if necessary.
So, I sit silence to consider all of my choices that are presented by the King of Kings, knowing that I must consider my path before I choose my weapons.
As I ready arms, a white winged-feather, of a very large bird, floats down my brow and gently lands to my side.
And I weep.
In anatomy, a foramen (pl. foramina) is any opening. Foramina inside the body of humans and other animals typically allow muscles, nerves, arteries, veins, or other structures to connect one part of the body with another….Wikipedia
Great Overlapping Design
Pulsing in the distance is a bright star ready to go supernova. When this occurs the entire Universe will change in the shock wave.
As with any ripple effect there will be a lot of change that is both mysterious and frightening, because when the Universe starts to change, everything in its path is destroyed to create something new and ominous.
In the reconstruction, life begins to form. What you see happening outside is also happening within, much like dancing with your fly open, there is an exposure of elements for the entire world to see these particles spreading out to propagate life elsewhere.
With the existence of many possibilities, one begins to question, what will happen next?
Incidentally, a wave front is described as a point that has the same phase on a line in the second dimension, or the surface of a wave propagating in the third dimension.
Basically, this means life itself is full of ups and downs, it’s the waves in a cycle that are always changing. The key to riding the waves is learning how to keep your balance with the ebb and flow that actually makes you start to question everything that seems to be happening at the same time, when in fact they are just transporting you safely to shore.
Living In Translation
The theory of random possibilities in quantum mechanics is like a mirror image of another reality when you really look at yourself with careful consideration, much like plotting the final coordinates to your journey there must be a fixed point to stay focused and balanced.
In order to fine tune the trajectory, by sequencing the map, visualize a 3D image of yourself and use this image to come up with a viable solution to every problem by simply playing make believe about the solution with simple meditation.
It is holographic, like any creation in your own mind, therefore, you only have to visualize the solution for it to manifest.
Any and all optical perceptions will create a physical response when the eyes affect the brain with stimulation of any kind like; brightness, color, position, site (distance of object) as it will insight conscious emotions as a result of an unconscious reference.
So make this image as real and as colorful as you want.
Here is something to consider; it is like mind control, and any kind of mind control including hypnotic suggestion, mantra programming, distraction, or repetition of a constant and persistent thought pattern builds this idea up as a personal belief.
And this is also achieved with meditation.
Cellular adaptation refers to changes made by a cell in response to adverse environmental changes made by physiological (normal) or pathological (abnormal) stimuli so this concept is a scientific fact.
These messages are marked with zip codes that target their transport to a specific gene, called a coding sequence. The mitochondrial DNA is the cellular power plant because it generates adenosine triphosphate, which is used a source of energy, and it is also responsible for this signaling.
What does any of this mean? I don’t really know I am just the messenger. In all truth I started writing all of this stuff years ago, leaving very little to nothing left for a surprise because I have no choice in the matter.
I am a middle child of God.
All I did was ask Spirit to help me understand these abilities one time, though. Living in translation has meant so many different things. Like a live wire, it is where much of my expectations come from, much like a wanting or desire that drives everything in my life now. The spark of the muse within.
How can this happen for you, you might ask?
Suddenly, many different things will start to appear much like a gift and you will begin to question every decision, every choice. But, all you can do for now is gather the information. The people you meet at the grocery store, out on the street crossing paths, randomly at your local pub, even something as simple as getting a bite out to eat at your favorite restaurant with friends or family becomes tiny bits and pieces of information. And this information is just little glimpse of a bigger picture, where everything eventually starts to fit and the pieces of puzzle will begin to unfold right in front your eyes just like magic.
You will find yourself saying, “Oh, that’s why!”
It is a huge responsibility to have such a gift, too. The gift of being a sentient being is an awesome responsibility in its own right so be mindful of this energy when you are living in translation.
The best lesson I have learned discovering these abilities is: I don’t know you well enough to make that kind of assessment for you to understand what this may mean in your life, therefore I cannot/should not judge you for trying. These questions I must ask myself based on our interaction only.
For some it is difficult to stay neutral when basic needs are not being met. And when you see and hear and feel things that do not belong to you, it is not always easy to remain objective. We probably all want the same things; love, acceptance, relationship, a sense of family, career, security, prosperity, but we all live in very different worlds even though we live on the same Planet. What is normal for me will be very different for you.
We are all different and yet much the same. Ultimately it is about finding what resonates within each of us to bring out the best of what we can do together, and that is only achieved through happiness and joy.
However, we must learn to temper this happiness and joy in order not hurt others in our desires to achieve these things.
The biggest sin is violating someone else’s sense of purpose.
Your etheric body acts like a modulator, a neuromodulator, that is sensitive to this kind of awareness, it is just that most of US have been conditioned to believe otherwise.
Soon, everything will start to make sense, though, and once this information is integrated in your senses, you will find yourself suddenly afraid to take the next step in your own evolution, but you must believe me when I say it is important to develop and understand these signs and signals in order to bring out the best of who you are, as well as, to bring out the best in others.
It is the truest gift of life, itself.
A Fixed Point 